Kirbyfan1234

Hii! I bet you're wondering why it's all empty around here, welp lemme explain in a short n' sweet way!! ..or at least try to! I've went though a handful of not so great events since 2020, 2021, and now 2022. they were that upsetting for me to slowly not want to talk with anyone or create art.. I kept making vent journals about my problems even if I felt bad? I didn't want to bring anyone down or have them feel pity for me everytime, but I cannot bottle up my emotions, I had to be honest with how I've been feeling. also something strange occurred in October 2021 with my profile, I had an indefinite ban by accident?? it was resolved quick, evenso the ban caused my newer journals and statuses to be blank, along with some deviations disappearing off my gallery within losing their favorites. so I thought: "hey y'know what, I've been on here since November 2009, why not clean up my WHOLE page to get rid of the old embarrassing art and posts I made since I don't feel comfortable having them around anymore due to how I was in the past? I'd like to have a fresh new start!" sure I could bring some of the old art back, but most won't be. I enjoy making remakes of old pieces, so I'm very likely to do that later on. unfortunately I had felt insecure with my artwork for most of 2021 cause I kept making past goofs even in the present.. yeah I now know that's how you learn and improve, but I was hard on myself for being in my comfort zone for so long. not really looking up a bunch of references, didn't practice enough, mostly figuring out how things worked on my own, even sticking with what I already knew how to do for being self taught as I did art for fun, not knowing the rights or wrongs. and I liked my artstyle from before, too. sometimes, at least. t'was circle heads with Kirby faces and Powerpuff Girls arms n' legs! ..doesn't hurt to change it up a bit for doing the same thing over and over for years! I wanna step up my game and work hard in the near future to improve so much with expressions, poses, coloring, and more!! I can say that I plan on making my artstyle more bouncy, bubbly, and expressive! I'm still passionate about art, always amazed of what others create, always wanting to learn more tips n' tricks, and always coming up with cutesilly ideas even if I haven't drawn for months!! I'm an easily distracted kind of person, I left unorganized digital documents pile up since 2016 as I didn't feel like spending hours with dragging files to folders and deciding on what to keep and get rid of.. though that's part of the fun to see how you were/what you liked back then. I really do need to get all that done and over with, even if I felt burnout for far too long now because the thought of organization is overwhelming. I have no clue on how long it'll take, I'll need lots of time to go though thingies and to take care of myself at my own pace, since I had often cared for others more than me. ..I've ALWAYS been hard on myself. I absolutely need to fix that! you won't get anywhere if you're harsh on yourself all the time.. even as a joke. folks can't emphasize enough of how important it is to put yourself first before others!! I don't know, I have that motherly instinct to me? haha! I'll also be busy sorting out real life stuff in my bedroom as I moved into a new house. ..didn't ask for that either. so no worries, I'm not leaving for good even if Eclipse is here permanently, I just need time to myself to focus on completing big tasks, and to be more kind to me.

I won't be away forever, only for a good while. I assure you it'll be worth the wait, I'll feel a lot better when I get whatever I need done, done. and of course, to quit blabbering about it so much! please donut worry about me, I'll try my hardest to be OK. worry about you instead. ~ Zoe

PS: I ALSO admit, I didn't get anything I wanted done of this year.. why?? I've been coping with Toontown Rewritten since Feburary! I took a break from it for sometime when Animal Crossing was released on the Switch in 2020. gosh Toontown makes me so darn happy, it's another beloved childhood game of mine besides Kirby!! have a ton of art ideas for AND from it! even tried out other servers like Corporate Clash and Tooniversal Studios!! ..I kinda felt bad for saying that out loud, buuut hey I'm honest!

..speaking of toontown please take this it ain't a kirbyfan post without the mention of being obsessed with a character:

YOU GET A SUGAR COOKIE IF YOU'RE ONE OF THE PEOPLE THAT REMEMBERED WHEN I HAD MY PINK DUCK TOONSONA WITH A CASH REGISTER IN MY GALLERY.. I ACTUALLY LIKED THAT PRETTY WIGGED LAWYER ABOVE BEFORE I EVEN KNEW WHO THE HECK THAT CASH REGISTER MAN WAS!! T'WAS A SHORT LIVED CRUSH, DIDN'T COME BACK TO ME TILL ADULTHOOD. NOT GONNA SAY A LOT ABOUT HIM AND THE LAWBOT COUNTERPART YET SO THIS IS ALL YOU'RE GETTING FOR NOW OKAY BYE-